Heartbreak

Heartbreak is the hardest emotion
I can deal with love
not wanting to leave your side
but when it comes down to that exact moment
when you have to say goodbye
I felt it shatter
I fell into pieces
Into my pillow
I cried for a little while
I recovered
but every thought
every memory
I shattered
Broke down
Torn the FUCK apart.

Your friends hated me
They had never met me
You gave me a chance
Chance of a lifetime
To spend two weeks with you
It was so beautiful
Laying in your arms in the most magical settings
Having crazy adventures in crazy cities
Pouring my heart out
For fucks sake I had found someone who liked me for me

and it's all gone

I would have given you everything
Everything I had to give
I wasn't broken
I didn't need you to make me feel better
I needed you, because you were you
and I liked EVERYTHING about you.

You made me laugh
so much it hurt inside
The thought of you being away from me hurt more than all
The thought of you going back to her
Killed me
She doesn't respect you
She doesn't love you.


I was restored
My heart was restored
and I gave myself
to the MOST amazing guy I've ever met
and there it goes
Shattered.
Destroyed.
But that's okay
That's life

I will try my hardest to forget you
I will be bitter and cold.
It will take another year to restore my faith
My heart
Piece it back together
Like a puzzle.


All in all
This is my vent
I'll get over you
but for the moment

I miss you.