Vacant

as soon as i arrive
you are kissing me passionately
not letting go
not wanting to be alone

i could see it in your eyes
the vacant look
the smell of alcohol
the taste of abuse

ive known you for 5 days
and i worry nonstop
hoping you are okay
and not hurting yourself

if i cant be your girlfriend
i want to be your friend
lean on me
when your not strong. friend.