Where I am right now (Oct 08)

Sometimes I feel so alone in the world,
But then I talk to someone,
who shares the same views,
and everything falls into place.

I miss how uncomplicated I once was,
before I became an emotional ugly mess.
No idea how I got this way,
Sometimes I wish it would dissapear.


But I guess that's what they call personality,
someone who isn't just a wall, too thick to talk to.
Someone who gives a fuck about more than just sex.
The importance of happiness, love and feeling.

The gut wrenching pain of being away from them.
The touch that quenches the hunger.
The kiss that makes you powerless, left quivering.
The feeling of knowing you are protected.

Arms wrapped around you, warm breath on your neck.
The whole world could collapse,
The sky could fall in,
but it doesn't matter, you are content.

Even when it is bad, it is good,
The sad times only makes the happy times better,
The laughter helps the tears be forgotten,
That moment, laying in the sand, hand in hand.

That is it.
That is emotion.
Not just someone who thinks they can have it all.
One day your little world will detonate.

and I will not be here to pick up those pieces.
I learnt that lesson.
I am me and one day it will come.
My happily ever after,
the one who will need and want me
not try to fix me
nor i fix them.